june gloom

S: Luke 10:38-42
As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, 42but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

OAP: As I was reading this, I kept thinking about how I feel the same way that martha does sometimes actually more than sometimes. It's hard for me as selfish as it is to stop and just be thankful for things and really sit and take them in. I'm the kind of person who is usually busy and going going going, never really taking time out to really sit back and appreciate life. I feel with martha and i get so caught up sometimes with life that i do feel like i deserve glory that is DEFINATLY not mine. It's hard to choose God when i'm always occupying myself with whatever is going on now, and what im going to do next and what i will do tomorrow. It has been pointed out to me many times that i have a short attention span and i feel like i use that as an excuse sometimes. I am uncomfortable and scared to stop and evaluate things with Jesus because i am fearful of seeing all of the wrong that is in me and i am so fearful of being a disapointment that i try so hard to do things so much but in the end everything i do is worthless.

Jesus, help me to only care about you, to be able to stop and enjoy things because you created them. to be able to appreciate people and situations because you are in them. i love you even though i don't show it.