boooo

god, why am i jealous. why do i still have to be in love. why can't i just move on, why dont i want to. why do you have plans for me that hurt me. i'm sorry for questioning you but why. it makes everything harder and hurt more. this sucks. please show me how to be happy and try to make it better. why is it so hard. why is it that all i want is to talk to him and see him. why cant things just be normal. why. ahh. im so frustrated. i am trying to be happy but why is it so hard. i know im being overdramatic but this is how i feel, i just dont understand. why couldnt it have worked out. why do i feel like everything is my fault. why is it that once i feel like things are getting better something else happens to bring me down. i dont get it. i know there are reasons for all of these things and i want to see them now. but i know i cant. can you please help me to understand why please soften my heart lord. i really need that.