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S:“For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you." Romans 12:3

OAP: this verse is very blunt. lately i have been trying to do this. sometimes i get caught up in trying to do good, and then seeing myself as a good person forgetting the fact that i am not good, god is good, but not me, jade in the flesh. jesus has given us so much and we take that for granted and try to make ourselves look good and take that from him. i find myself when i am in situations or arguments looking at the other person and only seeing their flaws and completely disreguarding my own. i realize in situations i need to step back and not be so quick to judge the person who i am in disagreement with or hurt by but i need to look at myself and my actions. i think that we all need to look at ourselves and see that we aren't all we think we are. we aren't these deserving and good people that we wish we were. we are living in a world of sin and we have to try to overcome it and figure out how to use it to become a better person.

jesus i hope that i can step back and see what im doing, especially lately. i'm repelling people i feel like and i feel like i am the only one to blame. as i look at my actions i try to put together why this is happening but its really hard. i know that i am flawed and its hard jesus because other people are flawed too. another thing is when things happen to hurt other people i wish i was the one who got hurt and could take it on. i feel so bad especially when i hurt people. i wish that they hurt me instead to me when i hurt people i feel their hurt and it hurts me hahah this is so confusing but how i feel. i pray jesus that i can be able to pull back and see myself as what i am, and that i am flawed. i also pray that i can see that you have created me and care and love me no matter what. this unconditional love thing you do, its amazing. jesus i pray thhat i can love others as you do and that you can give me words of wisdom to those who i struggle to get along with. i pray that the words out of my mouth will be kind and that i can just love. unconditionally. that seems impossible. but thats my goal. i love you and the beautiful creation you have created. lord as i was sitting in a tube floating down the truckee river i had to stop talking and take it all in. you take my breath away. you have bestowed so much beauty on earth and the fact that i get to take a few days to enjoy it is amazing. i am only privlidged enough because of you. thank you for giving us those moments to where we can just sttop and take it in. thank you for blessing me so much. i can't even end to thankyou. i love you. you are beautiful. even the spiders that left countless marks on my arms are beautiful. you are amazing.